Wednesday, March 19, 2008



I had a mini-meltdown at work today. There’s a lot to tell about why but really what it was is all the negative energy in the office. It was suffocating me today. I’m also extremely empathetic and I feel others unhappiness, deeply. I always want to fix it the problem and it’s hard for me to realize that it’s not mine to fix. I’m usually the class clown and can always make someone smile or laugh and even I wasn’t feeling like putting on a show today.

Either way, I ended up in the bathroom for a good ten minutes just bawling. I just felt so much sadness creeping in to me. I couldn’t get my shiz together. Just as soon as I’d wipe my eyes, fix my mascara and blow my nose I’d sob again.

I just wish things were a little different for all...

But I did go work out with my girl Jessy tonight and that made me feel loads better. We got to talking and laughing and I felt semi-normal again.

I’ve been really bothered by the fact that my father will not speak to me right now. I haven’t spoke to him since Christmas. I consistantly call him and leave voice mails. I even went so far as to ask his common law wife to have him call me.


I’m home now and I have a girls night (ME) planned out. I’ve got a glass of wine and I’m going to take a shower, give myself a facial, put on my glasses, get in my jammies, turn on Law and Order and dip into the new In Style and Elle Magazines that came in the mail this week.

hey! sorry your day yesterday was rough. I wanted to ask though, if you and alan have no plans for easter you are more than welcome to come over to our house and hang out, eat some food and watch little dude find/break eggs. that is, if i can find eggs...have you been to the store lately? it was like the egg area had been raded and all that was left was this week we are eating brown eggs cause no white ones were far i notice no difference except that they cost more. drat! anyways, give me a call or just come on over. I think julie and adam are coming too. bye!
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